Where do Strong Women Weep
Tears in my heart
how can I explain?
Good Strong women don’t cry or weep
They stand tall in their beautiful shoes
or their comfy worn out orthotic runners!
none the less they always stand
Not a moment would you think that she could not cope
with what ever you throw upon her
But she has tears in her heart for all the unspoken words
her brave lips could not bear to say
Where do we go when we need to weep
A closet, a wilderness, a bustling city
where nobody would notice?
No! she keeps it deep inside,
Her broken heart bleeds
just a little bit more from the pressure
and pain of it all
Where do I go to weep?
I know not a place
yet the smallest of kindnesses causes a rise in my heart
& a familiar choking behind my tongue
My eyes feel the dampness and pressure from behind
I gulp and I blink and I ‘m brave yet again
I’ve been told that I’m a strong bold woman
yet every day I feel no stronger than a mouse
I carry fear for myself and for others
deep in my soul
I cope well on the outside
with everything that is thrown my way
We are ALL Brave Women
because that is how God has made us
Child bearing is no walk in the park
& its not over at birth
our overstretched bodies take years to recover
if ever it does?
That’s untold bravery right there.
Brave Women aren’t encouraged,
they are brave you think;
why would they need to hear you say it?
But we need it more, not just for ourselves
but so we can bravely light the fire of other uncelebrated female heroes.
I dedicate this post to all of the brave women out there
& yes that even means YOU!
Let yourself weep when weeping is due
Because if you don’t then a river of tears
I can’t weep right now as I write this post
because I’m travelling on the train
to another Peter Mac Cancer appointment
But you know what?
I might just weep when I get home tonight.
Christina Johns x 2016